Listening

I Know it;s been awhile.. But hello.

I know before I had said that I was going to write in this everyday; and I have failed to do so for a few months. I really do apologize for that. I hope you will forgive me. But guess what guys I am back! At the top my title says, ‘Listen’. Over these past few months I have learned that listening comes in handy a lot as a teenager. Being in high school you are always listening, to a million people! Sometimes you just want to stop and think to yourself that you will be fine if you don’t listen to those who are trying to do the talking.. But let me tell you I have learned my lesson. At the beginning of the school year I had a million friends, who I listened to all the time, then I did a stupid thing and lost them. At the beginning of the year I told myself that this year was going to be different, “I am going to do way better this year than I ever have. This is the most important year and this is my last chance to prove myself.” But let me tell you I did the exact opposite. Once I put myself in that mindset I told myself that I thought that I was invincible and now I am the furthest thing from it. Once I started thinking that way I decided to stop ‘listening’ to those who matter most like teachers, parents, family, and friends. I thought that I was right and no one else. At that moment was the moment that lead me to exactly where I am now. 

When the report cards came in the mail wanna know what my grades were? Well I’m not going to tell you the exact but I can tell you that my grade point average was a 2.8, do you remember my post about disappointing your parents? Well as soon as my parents saw it they were very disappointed. I never meant to make them feel that way but once it came in the mail there was no turning back. My whole entire school career I have been an A, B student in English. You know what I got? I got a D+. A D+! My Mom confronted me first and all I could say was sorry. I know that’s not good enough but that’s all I could do at that moment to try to patch what I had broken. For insurance you have to have a 3.0 or better and I did not have that so now money was becoming an issue. So not only did I disappoint my Mom but also put a financial burden on this situation as well. A few days later I got a text from my Dad asking me what went wrong. And me being the Daddy’s little girl I am I just broke down in tears. I felt so bad about what I had done. Then on top of that I knew that I was going to face the rath of my college prep councilor; she told me that this D+ was going to make it hard for me when colleges look at my transcripts. Of course that was exactly what I didn’t want to hear but I just took it all in and listened to everything she had to say.

As much as I wanted to blame my teacher for not teaching right or make up excuses I knew none of that was true. This was all my fault. I never took the time to think about the consequences that would come if I slacked off. 

These past two years everyone has been telling me listen to what those above you have to say cause they know what they are talking about. No teenager wants to listen to that, they want to think that they are always right but, let me tell you, you’re not always right. It took me messing up to learn that. Hopefully you reading this won’t have to go through the same thing to learn it and just take my advice.

Love,

The Girl With The Ripped Jeans <3

Music is my Muse

Music…

“Music is my muse. It makes me think, it helps me dream, and mostly it gets me through good times and bad. ”  - The Girl with the Ripped Jeans.

As you all know I want to be a writer as I get older and really begin my life as an adult. What I really love doing is writing stories; putting my imagination to the test! 

My story all started..

About two years ago over summer I had the chance to stay at the college near by for six weeks, with a college prep program. They had asked me at the beginning what I wanted to do once I got into college, and as a freshman in high school that is a huge question. They told me that it doesn’t have to be something like a lawyer or a doctor or something over glorified like a model or an actress; it could be something that I just simply love. Which brought me to the answer of being a Writer. During the summer they set me up in an English class along with a bunch of other kids my age and the teacher gave us an assignment. We had to write the beginning of a novel by the end of the summer; so of course I went straight to my  dorm and started brainstorming what I could write about! Nothing was coming to me though, so out of frustration I just grabbed my iPod and started listening to music…That’s when it all happened! Songs were coming on and giving me the greatest ideas. By the end of the summer I had half a novel done! When I turned it in to be corrected my teacher read the beginning of it and sort of looked at me weird.. automatically my heart dropped. Like, “Oh crap I did something wrong!” When I got the paper back a week later he pulled me aside and said, “you have some really nice stuff here. You have some really strong writing and your play on words is just amazing.” After that I knew exactly how I would make something of myself as a writer! Now I am almost done with my novel and I am pretty happy with it. I’ve only ever let three people read it cause I am nervous about letting others read so much of my writing. But you know aren’t songs others feelings put in tune? If they can do it I should be able to, too. (: 

One of my favorite songs is a song by Rascal Flatts; Stand. It’s so amazing every time I listen to it I get butterflies all over and just feel like I am invincible! The whole song is talking about when you have struggles in your life you just have to, “look up decide you’ve had enough; you get mad, you get strong; wipe your hands and shake it off. Than you stand!” You lead your own life. It’s inevitable as to what will happen but you just have to keep holding on, “when push comes to shove, you taste what you’re made of;  you might bend till you break cause it’s all you can take.” This song has inspired me throughout my life to just keep going on. Things can get hard sometimes but you just have to keep going.

Sometimes a form of writing for me is to write songs. If I just need to get something out I grab a notepad and pen and just start writing. Usually the things I am feeling aren’t directly written. The songs have deeper meanings. But music helps me get it out. 

So the next time that you are sad, happy, in love, or just need a great idea to get you through go on the internet and check out some YouTube or grab your iPod and go for a jog. 

“Music is my life, my love, and the greatest gift anyone could give.”

Love,

The Girl with the Ripped Jeans <3

The Girl with the Ripped Jeans <3

The One Who; Helps Others Dreams Come True

So earlier this week…

My Aunt came over to my house and was raving about this website! She was telling me all about it and how she loves to read my stuff and that she thought that it would be a great idea for me to try it out. Yesterday I finally made one and I am already in love with it. As I was getting used to writing on here and all,  I  suddenly  got a post from awonderouslife, a woman who had commented on one of my posts earlier and helped me continue on with my writing; by giving me that extra little boost, knowing that my writing was good. (: So awonderoulife thank you a million times +1. It’s really heart warming to know that there are already people out there reading my blog and enjoying it for all that I want it to be. To continue, the s’morning I woke up with a little comment on one of my blogs and it was from her; she has nominated me for the Liebster Blog.! I’m no quiet exactly sure what it is as of now but she informed me that to earn this award you have to follow a few simple steps;

1.) Give a shout out to the blogger who nominated you!  So here you are: http://awonderouslife.wordpress.com/ 

I have read some of her stuff and I really like it, she is great so go check her out!

2.) Choose 5 bloggers who also deserve the honor! (forgive me if I nominate someone who has more than 200, as I am new to this site and am not sure how to see if they do or not. I will try my best )

simpl3nough 

This young lady I believe to be about my age commented on one of my posts yesterday and mentioned that she has been trying to find someone like her on this site; just the kind of person who I am  happy to follow and be followed by haa. She has a great blog that I have enjoyed reading. She also has a lot of great advice! Give her a look at if you would like! 

mzklever  

I’m not quite sure if I can nominate someone who has been nominated but you know she deserves to be recognized more than once! Her blog is great; for me being a teenager seeking to help teens I like to look at her blog to get some insight on how adults think and she is very clever and makes me giggle a bit if I do say so myself! 

http://jamesdez.wordpress.com/

This man in my opinion is very honest! And I like that quality in someone! He seems to just tell the truth in his blogs and though he doesn’t think that he is funny I do (:

Cobblestone Streets

One thing you find with me is that I am in love with photography. It’s like telling a story or showing life’s obstacles through the lens of a camera. I like this girl in particular cause she is really good at showing that. Her photography is ahhmazing if I do say so myself. Give her a little looksie!

http://awordsmithsbrainworks.wordpress.com/

I like this lady because she is really deep in her work and when you read her stuff she really gets you thinking! So please go check her out!

3.) Lastly you continue letting people know about what the award is and have fun writing!!!

Thank you so much to everyone! Letting me read your blogs and such! And one last thank you to  mzklever  for nominating me for this!!!

Love,

The Girl with the Ripped Jeans <3

Hopeless Romantic? Yeah, that’s me.

I am one of those people who..

  • whenever I see a couple walking down the street my heart melts and I can’t help but say ‘awe!!’
  • I have always wanted a nice long term relationship..
  • When a love song comes on the radio whether I am sad or not I just have to turn it up cause it will do one of two things.. Either put a smile on my face with the illusion of love or it will make me sad because of a recent heartbreak.

Isn’t it amazing what love does to you? My whole life I have been just like any other love struck girl, teenager, woman.. I’ve wanted my love life to be just like a movie. Where prince charming comes in and sweeps me off my feet! Wouldn’t that just be amazing. But than I come back to reality and think about what happens in the real world. Boys don’t come up now days and say ‘Wow you are so gorgeous’ unless they are looking for something in particular. I’m not saying that those wonderful guys aren’t out there. But they are so hard to find.. What I do know is that every girl is different and that they all have there own prince charming.. so really i am going against what I just said.. Ha. Ironic isn’t it? Not one is alike which means that we each have that one man/guy/boy that is our other half.. I read a quote once that said, ‘once upon a time the Greek god Zeus had made human beings all with four eyes, ears, and hands. along with two noses and mouths. Afraid of their power he split them in half.. You know what those people are called? They are called our soul mates.’ I’m not sure who wrote the quote or anything but mad props to them. Other than the Greek mythology part I think that person was right in saying that because each and every one of us has a soul mate somewhere out there. All you have to believe. 

Now days woman and girls all alike think that they have to dress the part and be the part for a guy to like them. But I am here to tell you that, I am not a relationship expert or anything but I do know that; guys like girls more the way you are. There was a time when I thought that I had to dress a certain way so that I could just get a cute guy to look at me. I played the whole dumb blonde part too! Than one day all of the sudden it clicked in my mind ‘what the hell am I doing?! It is so exhausting getting up early in the morning doing my hair perfect and doing my make up just right. I am buying all these stupid name brand clothes when I could be buying myself a new laptop or something.’ I am so glad that, that happened when it did because now when I’m not trying to be perfect and just be me the boys who I have had crushes on forever are noticing me more. Not just as that one girl, they are inviting me to hang out with them more and we are becoming friends. Talking all the time. And now this really cute guy and I are starting to like each other more and more every day. So I finally took that leap and came out and showed that nerdy little girl in me and he loves me for it.So all the time before when I was “acting” the part thinking that these guys were falling for me when they weren’t I figure I was falling for the illusion of Love what so many of us now days want. ‘Fall in love when you’ve actually found someone who cares for you like you deserve to be loved not when you’re lonely.’ That’s the key and be yourself! I cannot express enough how important that is! It might feel good to be the pretty girl in school but the closet book worm when you get home. But that’s no life. Find that guy who will be cool with you than take you to the library for that cute little study date. I promise it’s all worth it in the end ;) 

Love.

The Girl with the Ripped Jeans. <3

Procrastination

I despise tests…

I have a test tomorrow and ugh! I don’t want to take it one bit. My Teacher keeps saying, ‘every year most of the class fails this and if you bomb it even if you have a B in the class you will have an F so study hard!!’ Well all weekend I have been super busy, what with Thanksgiving and everything. Than work and of course Black Friday. So today and yesterday I have been trying to study. And you know what?! MY BRAIN HURTS!!  So I am taking a break. Procrastinating is really bad but you know sometimes it is neccissary (: ha sometimes it is necisarry to have a little bit of fun! Yes school is important and all but wow. Junior year is hard. I don’t want to fail but come on I feel like my teacher is setting me up for failure and it’s not fair! What to do in this situation? I think I am going to have to suck it up and just study my brains out! Yeah okay. Now if anybody out there needs some good study skills just ask cause I have a few!

Love,

The Girl with the Ripped Jeans <3

Who Am I?

Who I am…

I am a typical American teenager trying to fulfill her dreams, taking it one step at a time. Everyday there are new obstacles to overcome, if there weren’t would this really be life? Everyone has there struggles and let me tell you; I have had my fair share. Through my life I have had the time to conquer and the time to be all the way at the bottom. I have found ways to overcome all my challenges and make it through. Lets take this blog as kind of the Journal as ‘The memoir of an American teenager’. I am here to answer questions of those you who are having troubles in their lives and even the parents who are watching their children struggle. Everyday I will try my best to write here sort of as a journal. Keep reading you may learn something along the way; as will I! 

Love,

The Girl with the Ripped Jeans <3